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I often wonder if he ever even realized he's been abusing me. I mean, after I started crying saying last night "I didn't do anything!" he started yelling at me to stop acting like I was the victim:
Him: "Stop it!! Stop saying that!! STOP SAYING THAT!! You always do this!! You always try to make yourself look like the victim!!!"
Me: "I was just washing dishes and you hit me!!!"
Him: I didn't hit you!!
Me: "Yes you did!!"
That's when he looked at my arm and realized he did hit me
Him: "Oh my God!! Did I do that?! I did!! Oh my God! I did! I did!! I'm so sorry!! I did!! Oh my God!! I just meant to grab you!! I never meant to hurt you!! I should've never done that to you!"
It's after this I wasn't sure if he was trying to cover it up or if it really was an accident. Still...I often wonder if he realizes he's been verbally and mentally abusing me. I mean, I looked at that Power & Control wheel in the Power & control in dating relationships thread and he does a huge majority of everything on that chart but does he realize he's doing it?!
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