Congratulations on reaching out here on PC SacredSnow!

I kept to myself and inside myself at that time in my life. There was a feeling of isolation and that people just didn't get it or get me. I mastered holding my feelings in and projecting what I thought others wanted to see on the outside. I think I was afraid that what was on the inside, the genuine me with assorted ugly characteristics along with the good, would be unacceptable to people. And like if I let myself be known and they don't like me.... gulp. I rarely cried either.

If it is disrupting your life and if it seems to be growing worse maybe you should consider seeing a counselor or a therapist to discuss it. You might be able to work something out at school or involve your parent or guardian. I waited decades to talk to a therapist but it has made such a big difference, i recommend it.