**Trigger for SI**



T, what on earth are you going to even say to me when you see what I've done? What am I supposed to even say to explain myself? I honestly have no good logical explanation. I just know, I wanted it to keep hurting, I deserve it, as painful as it was it also felt good in some twisted way. I don't think I realized how much I was capable of doing, though. I really hurt myself. You have always accepted me no matter what, but I always fear I might do the one thing that makes you have to stop working with me, what if this is it? I need help. I promise I'll work hard to stop doing this but please give me the chance to at least try...