Hi,
I am sure this question has been answered before, so please forgive me for asking it again, but I just wanted to ask what others do when they feel so depressed, but they don't know what the reason is. I have been working with my T for about a year, and we are making headway, but it is slow. Tonight and often I feel just horrible. I am supposed to save it to work with my T on it, not deal with it on my own, but it is just leaking out.
And also, I feel bad when people tell me there is no such thing as DID. I can't even tell them, because they don't understand and they are not people I am close to, but it is distressing. Actually I never have told my family either. I don't know how to tell my kids and grandkids. Heck, I am still shy to tell my psychiatrist. I need to do that
I worry too that things will show at work or school. Like when someone asked how long had I been a nurse, and I said, ten years, err no fifteen years, uh no ten years, no fifteen years. It is so embarrassing. Or someone asks me how many grandchildren I have, and I get mixed up and can't exactly remember. I know the answers but then when they ask me I go into nervous mode and can't remember the right things to say. That happens a lot.
Anyway, my main question, is what do any of you or your alters do when the nasty depression creeps in. I am on antidepressants, I am taking care of myself, but it doesn't solve everything, that is for sure. I just need a bit more coping and caring. So any suggestions you have will be appreciated.
Thanks,
Roseheart & Bobbi Jo
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