I know it's hard to heal after having something like that happen. She certainly didn't give you a chance to "make things right" like marriage counseling. That's a shame.

But I think it would be good for you right now to get some therapy or perhaps talk to a grief counselor. Either one would do you some good. You can get a grief counselor thru Hospice. They have some great ones. You ARE grieving the loss of your marriage AND your wife, so a grief counselor would be appropriate and they CAN help you! You might want to give them a try first. If that doesn't work, go into psychological counseling. Your doctor can refer you to a good counselor. But do it for you. It will help you get back on the road to recovery, as right now you're struggling.

I wish you the very best, my friend. Please keep us posted on your progress, okay? God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee