Insecurity. I want to talk about my insecurity today.

I realized that reassurance from my wife makes insecurity more bearable. I told her that I need to know if she loves my madness also, my mad episodes. She said she couldn't the destructive things that I did, but she loves me. I asked her whether she loves me when I am depressed, when I am irritated, when I am angry...

We talked about love. She questioned the reason why I need to know, because I can't feel her love. I told her knowing and feeling are 2 different things. I am practicing lovingness. I believe in due time, I will feel. Knowing will leads to feeling and will develop my ability to love her, I believe.

I felt the pressure of insecurity relieved. What did I learn today? Assurance can help with insecurity.