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Originally Posted by Roseheart101
Hi,
I am sure this question has been answered before, so please forgive me for asking it again, but I just wanted to ask what others do when they feel so depressed, but they don't know what the reason is. I have been working with my T for about a year, and we are making headway, but it is slow. Tonight and often I feel just horrible. I am supposed to save it to work with my T on it, not deal with it on my own, but it is just leaking out.
And also, I feel bad when people tell me there is no such thing as DID. I can't even tell them, because they don't understand and they are not people I am close to, but it is distressing. Actually I never have told my family either. I don't know how to tell my kids and grandkids. Heck, I am still shy to tell my psychiatrist. I need to do that
I worry too that things will show at work or school. Like when someone asked how long had I been a nurse, and I said, ten years, err no fifteen years, uh no ten years, no fifteen years. It is so embarrassing. Or someone asks me how many grandchildren I have, and I get mixed up and can't exactly remember. I know the answers but then when they ask me I go into nervous mode and can't remember the right things to say. That happens a lot.
Anyway, my main question, is what do any of you or your alters do when the nasty depression creeps in. I am on antidepressants, I am taking care of myself, but it doesn't solve everything, that is for sure. I just need a bit more coping and caring. So any suggestions you have will be appreciated.
Thanks,
Roseheart & Bobbi Jo
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before I was integrated the first thing I did was contact my treatment providers. by doing this my doctor, therapist and psychiatrist were aware that I was in active depression..
from there ...
my doctor would do a physical to make sure the situation was / was not a medical issue...there are many medical and normal issues that caused me to be depressed and not know why...lack of sleep, poor diet, not enough fluids....
my psychiatrist would make adjustments to my medications because sometimes I would develop a tolerance for the medication or the medication dosage or kind was too much or not enough or wrong meds now...
my therapist and I would talk about things like when does this feeling hit me, what does it feel like mentally and physically, whats going on in my home life, whats going on in my love life,.....
eventually the reason behind the feeling depressed would show itself.
in the mean time my treatment providers and I would set up contracts / emergency plans just in case they were needed should the depression slip into self injury or suicidal thoughts/plans/actions.
On rare occasions my feeling depressed for no reason would turn out to be my becoming co conscious of an alter that was depressed. in these situations my therapist and I would talk about the same things as above and she would have me do whats called...sit with the feeling...which was allow myself to feel it/write about it/ draw it/ and other ways of expressing it...over all we considered my being able to feel an alters depression as a good thing because it showed I was healing enough to be able to handle the feeling of depression on my own with out having the alter hold that emotion/feeling away from me. sometimes my therapist and I would sit together with me wrapped up in a soft blanket and my therapist holding me while I let myself feel that depression and cry if the need be.