I call it existential frustration. It is extremely difficult to bear life when we can't change the life we are in, to live the life we don't want. The way out for something we can't change in practical reality is to accept it.

If you can accept it, then LIFE begs you this question, "what is the meaning of your life?". You can answer it by being responsible to your life. You are a considerate person. Could that be the meaning of your life? You are trying to be considerate among difficult people. You don't have to hate your life because of them. You can be yourself and to love yourself.

Begin a journey to discover the meaning for your life. Nobody can do that for you, only you can.