YES! Yes yes yes this this this this is sooooooo me. BUT I've made the decision to keep trying because I can't keep holing up in my house all alone with only my two cats to keep me company. I truly am a crazy cat lady if I do that. That, and the two close friends I have cannot keep shouldering all of my social life. I need to take responsibility for myself and get out there. It takes practice; eventually it will start to feel more normal and "worth it." I keep telling myself that, at least.