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Old Feb 13, 2013, 02:33 PM
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Originally Posted by grandmaof3 View Post
I only keep in touch with one friend from high school.We're not that close anymore partly because I moved out of state. I don't really have any close friends that I can really talk to except my husband and I hate dumping on him all the time, it stresses him out. Life would be better with one close friend I could confide in but it seems like I drive people away when they start getting close.
I feel the same way you do. I don't keep up with anyone from high school or college. Or the town where my kids grew up. Or the town we moved from 7 years ago. Although my therapist believes (and I'd have to agree) that my husband is actually part of the problem, he's also pretty much my only support.

I think life would be better with even one close friend. But I think I have to learn to be one, so I can have one. And I need to be out there really participating while I'm supposedly socializing. The social anxiety is a significant inhibitor there. The funny thing is - if you asked most people who've met me, they'd be shocked to know that my outgoing personality is a big sham and that I'm mostly terrified on the inside.
Maybe anxiety is an issue for you too?