skittle i can relate. i am bipolar and my docs are querying a PD, and i think i may have schizoid pd. schizoids typically avoid sociability but it's thought for different reasons than avoidants, who avoid it because they're shy or embarrassed or worried about how people see them. with schizoids as far as i know it's more about a genuine need to be away from people because they're boring or uninteresting. obviously i'm no professional so don't quote me.

from my own perspective, i find people hard work. i live in a house with 3 housemates and i don't like to socialise with them. if i go in the kitchen to make tea and they're there, i will chat with them, but only about the weather and stuff. i like to keep myself to myself and i rarely go out. i went back to uni tonight and my dad said it would be nice to see my uni friends again and see more of them. i said "er... ok" but i was thinking "i go to uni to learn, i don't care about seeing people there" - there are people at college i like but i don't care about seeing them besides in lessons.

as for the disgust, i have a total "thing" about people not being covered. facial hair disgusts me, baldness does, people not covering their arms or legs or chest, the bodies get to me. if someone is covered, i'm less wary. but if they come too close to me at all i go a bit nuts and have to get out. public transport is horrible.

as a result, i also yell at people often "why are you looking at me?" "why are you standing anywhere near me?" "how dare you invade my space?" etc.

so er, yeah, not a very helpful post but i can understand your point of view. i'm having therapy to try to work out why i feel this way and what i can do about it but so far, it's just getting worse....