I know exactly what you mean about sticking to things, I always refused help for many years you could say I was in total denial about myself, I think that I have had BPD for many years without knowing it and my doctor,Pdoc, and xT agrees too.

I know that this therapy is hard as I said I have only had one session and I found it really tough but I need to do this for my own sake, I am sick of my self harm and I am sick of hating myself and I am sick of being BPD, I know that therapy won't cure me but I want to try and understand my feelings and to get rid of all this childhood trauma.