As much as money means to you, getting work doesn't seem to be a big priority. Do you live with your parents?

Much of my self esteem and self control comes from my career. The money is important it funds everything else going on in my life.

If I ever find myself unemployed, I would go back to washing dishes, fast order cook, bag girl at a supermarket.

For me there is a difference between finding a job and finding work. There is plenty of work out there if you're willing to do the menial labor till you find something better. Or you can turn your nose up and wait for a job you like. That could take a very long time though.

Instead of dwelling on the problems, start dwelling on the solutions.