Hamstergirl - do you know what i wish for you more than anything else right now? I wish and hope that one day you will be able to sing to your hearts content in the middle of your Church not just in the bathroom. I really hope that one day you will allow yourself this one achievement, this one happy moment when all your fears, insecurities, pain will be washed away, when (for a few moments at least) you won't have to worry about the past or the future but only take heart in the present and your joy of singing.
That is what i wish for. I hope one day my wish for you comes true.
All my love Abby