i feel like i am spyroling down further every day. I now feel like my friends are just my friends because i have money and i am being used. I know it is not the case. I also feel that the rest of the world is collaborating to get me some way. Everyone that was my friend now hates me and those who are still my friend i feel used. I have only told a select few what is truly going on with me mentally (no one here) and when i do i usually get a cold shoulder like there is something wrong with me. So i just keep my happy mask on for the rest of the world to see so know one really knows what is going on inside me. i am eating my self from the inside out because i don't trust people. not even my therapist.