No, not bad.

IMO you need to broaden your horizons... because if you include the whole world, who is a minority and who is a majority? If I think my area only, I am a minority but in the world? Does it matter?

I understand about religion. Yes, the USA had more religions on the list as cults instead...yet even Christianity was considered a "cult" when it first began in the Middle East. I think everyone who truly lives their beliefs regarding a higher power, will be persecuted in some way.

I would be hesistant to label anyone anti social just for wanting to live without the clutter of relationships as part of life. Again, I would ask you to consider the BIGGER PICTURE when it comes to the 21st century... even technology helps the farmers create better and bigger crops...we still eat, and one of the reasons ppl don't farm/have gardens is because they can't afford large enough property to do that??? Yes, I hear you, even my HOA won't allow fruit trees in the front yard, and only 1 in the back. Too messy for the front view, and likewise in the back, that encourages rats and other vermints lol... when ppl live so close together..you know? But use what this information age can give you in your desired life of solitude YOu can stay connected without going anywhere! lol

Not all of us can do the stay at home mom scene. Why aren't you asking about the stay at home dad scene? Trick question.

You know what theme I find in all of your paragraphs? You seem to be trying to find who you are by outside sources...comparing your life with what you think the world expects. It's ok to want some things (even God says He will give you the DESIRES of your heart.) It's ok to work. It's ok to not be what you thought you would be. (Look how many things we said we would be when we were growing up )

You also sound like you are doing the "what if" in the background.

We have travelled the path we have for reasons. Some of those reasons were beyond our control. Some of the decisions were made because we had to learn how to make them. You seem to expect to have had the knowledge and understanding that you have now, back when you were trying to decide what was best...and doubt that you chose the right path?

((((rap)))) You don't sound happy. To me you sound like you are reminiscing and regretting and second guessing yourself.

The way I have learned to look at things in general is I did the best I could. Yes, knowing what I know now, going back to then, I would make different choices, decisions. But that isn't how it was. When I was there, I did the best I could. Just like I am today...and like you are doing today also, aren't you? Aren't you struggling to do the best you can, with the information and situations you have now? Of course. Quit beating yourself up. TC