I can relate. I've always felt no one knows the real me or would like the real me. I learned from a young age to hold in my emotions--though I've always felt emotions strongly on the inside. I just don't know how to express my emotions and sometimes I can't give a name to my emotions--its very frustrating. I have always felt empty and alone even in a crowded room.

My emotions are always on the down side and strong (never up), but it has been suggested that I not only have Major Depressive Disorder but Borderline Personality Disorder.....borderlines have strong, ever-changing emotions and it might be something to look into--especially the book by Marsha Linnehan. Just a suggestion....but I also encourage you to talk to a trained professional (therapist)--they can help you understand why you feel the way you do and they do not judge you and if you go to one, it doesn't mean you are crazy (just that you want to improve yourself).

Best of luck!