I am feeling so sad today. I have no reason to explain why. I normally don't feel. I numb it. My friend told me it was good I was letting myself feel. I like feeling happy, experiencing JOY, but not feeling sad, angry, or any of what I would call the negative feelings. I don't know how I am going to get through tomorrow without either sh, gambling, or drinking. It has been a long time since I have used sh, but an even longer time since I have drank. It definitely is a low day. How do I get through feeling, or do I just find a way to cheer myself up?

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