When I was prepubescent, I spent one winter break in the hoouse of my father's friend. His daughter was one year younger than me and also prepubescent. I liked the whole family greatly.

Every night the girl would want to hug and kiss and caress. No genital involvement. I was in general very very inexperienced and not learned in this area at all. I knew very little about opposite gender sex and nothing at all about same sex relationships. The caressing sessions were like chores to me, I.e. nothing horrible but I was glad when done.

I next saw the girl when about seventeen. At that time, I was a virgin sexually but had had kissing experiences with boys and they had been fairly exciting without feeling like chores. My friend was living with two men in a menage de trois, so was quite heterosexual atm. And then I have lost track of her.

Should I count it as a failed trial of a same sex relationship that just proves beyond reasonable doubt that such relationships are not for me? Or should I count myself as tabula rasa still, in this particular regard?