I agree with rapunzel and darkeyes on this one. in order for us to respect you as a person, you must be open and completely honest with us. I've read some of your posts, and seen what others have responded with. Everyone here is trying to help you. But what has already been said, is that we are NOT doctors, therapists, p-docs, and professionals. We are everyday people, with our own problems, who have come here to support one another through rough times, and we aim to try to help people and encourage them to get help when they are in need of it. We can't do more than to ask you to get the help that you seem to need. Please don't get mad at us for trying to help you out. You're the one that asked for our opinions and support and help. We are doing the best we can to give you what you need, but we can only do so much for you. As rapunzel said, it does get frustrating, when we're doing what we can for someone, and yet they won't do anything for themselves, to get better and pull themselves out of this rut. You need to talk to someone more experienced with these kinds of things, than we. We can all share our experiences with you and tell you how we've come to deal with rough times, and give you advice on what to do to help, but when it comes down to it, it is utimately your doctor who can advise you as to the best course of treatment to follow. Please get the help that you need and please get it soon.
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