Ooooh, RB! I'm so sorry you're feeling so badly.
You are totally lovable! Wish I had some magic words that would truly comfort you. To help temper the extremes, both that you feel and that you think. Not sure what those words are, but I'm sending them to you anyhow, because it's the feeling behind them more than the specific words...

How are you doing this morning?

(Sorry I didn't respond sooner, RB. I've scarcely been on PC the last couple days, and hadn't checked in with the new threads.)