I hate when those self doubting thoughts creep into my brain trying to muffle the thoughts that keep me moving and motivated. Depression is a hard thing to break, it exists in almost every movement I make, and everyday since about November which is the day I took a leap I go to war against those thoughts, holding them down, throwing them out.....everytime I feel a struggle in my head that I feel I need reinforcments I read a book with nothing but affirmation prayers.....I cant lay down anymore