I can't handle being sober because i'm a ghost with unfinished business. God told me to drink so i could realize my own potential in life and being a drunk was part of it. I guess it sounds stupid but I really dont' know what to do.

I don't know what's stopping me from drinking the beer in the garage.

The only thing that stops me is the notion that once you've been to AA, drinking just isn't the same.

I can totally deal with violent thoughts, but I can't deal with the facist mornings.