.....

sure justa" minute let me re-focus or am I too late?

I loved you I don't even need to shake my head as much as you do when you realised it too!

terribly mistaken were you when you emotionally sideswiped me!

..now I better tear your heart out but my damn hands are full gathering up my own!

...and I still love you I adore you I dream about you eccentric nightmare of things I could never do!

in my broken bed alone and desperate....

I wonder what yours is like but I cannot handle the absence and it was my fault right?

..that you aint here no more!...

funny thing honey I was never here either ...no wonder you left and now I'm sadder twice!

I never believed you meant it when you touched me and I never believed just how much I meant it when I touched you....

...I remember the moments I was not allowed to make sense of because your mind was not in touch with mine...

and you are still ...?

it's a crazy beautiful disaster