Its Valentine's Day and I have a boyfriend that I'm completely in love with, but for some reason I'm just not in the mood for this day. I've actually been dreading it for the past couple days. Lately I haven't felt myself like I 'm not motivated to do anything. And I should be the happiest person right now because I just passed my drivers test and I bought my first car! But for some reason I feel like everyone is against me. And my car is a yellow banana colour and everyone just keeps making fun of it. (And it bothers me because this is the first thing that is actually MINE.) I don't even know how to describe what I feel I guess I just feel lost. Like I don't belong and I'm really moody. It all started when I started taking driving classes. (I'm cyber schooled. And the reason I'm doing that Is because of the bullying and anxiety from the actual school. And when I'm back in a class room for my driving classes I just feel like that all over again.) My boyfriend tells me that I shouldn't worry about what other people think of me that he loves me and thats all that matters, but I don't know. I just can't get passed it...