Feeling yucky right now. So incredibly exhausted. Mom's home from the hospital...and it's been NON STOP since she got home yesterday....between pharmacy runs, phone calls, paperwork, taking her to get the IV treatments, in-home nurse stuff, my daughter, running back and forth between two houses....and not getting much sleep last night cuz I woke up with a horrific migraine....ACK!

I see T in less than a half hour and I DON'T WANT TO.....I am feeling SO nauseous and icky since group T.....

....and just now, I read on my group T blog a post to me from one of the guys that has struggled to make a connection with me....and he is ticked off at me for calling him out the other night....

When the one person disclosed her SA....she got some feedback...and then there was silence...and I was panicking...because I know that the LAST thing I want to hear when I share something so vulnerable is silence.....and when my T called me out on it, he asked me what I was feeling. I said I was agitated because of the silence. He asked me if there was anyone in particular that would be directed to...and I named two people (the ones who were silent - the others spoke already - they were the only two that said nothing)....So now one of the two I mentioned is pissed at me - saying that it's times like this when he realizes why he has no connection with me. Obviously, because I'm an arsehole (my words, not his, but still).

I feel sick.