Interesting. Even though you are in a good relationship, Valentine's Day holds dread for you.
Thank you for posting this, WiShEs.Of.ThE.hEaRt; you are not alone.
Clinical depression/anxiety mean one has diminished capacity to actualize all the "shoulds" and "shouldn'ts."
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.