i had a moment sort of like that yesterday. got some mail from the college i work for/attend and it was some invitation to some 'academic recognition dinner' - instead of looking at it and thinking "wow, that's nice. yay me" my reaction was "wtf is this?!" and i rolled my eyes and tossed the letter on the table.

but for me, it's because the last semester was really difficult for me. i basically stopped going to my classes (with the exception of one, which i did really well in) i just QUIT going...did not officially withdraw from them or anything...i was actually doing pretty well in one of the classes i stopped going to, but i started to get stressed about projects, presentations and when that happens, i tend to run...so hard to stop that mess.

the previous 2 semesters were really good. i did really well and i was in a good place...but last (fall 2012) semester was not so great at all, so in my mind i dont deserve the invitation and that is why i had the reaction i did to the invitation.