First, understand that you are not alone. Many of us are or have experienced what you are going through at the moment. It is great that you are seeking therapy....and don't be embarrassed or afraid. We seek medical help when we are ill with a medical condition and this is no different. Hopefully, your therapist uses Cognitive Therapy as it appears than your thoughts (most distorted) are affecting how you feel...you have taken the first step and although it is a cliche, take one day at a time..."baby steps".
I am a grad student working on my Masters in Counseling....58 years old and believe me, I have gone through anxiety, obsessions, depression and lack of motivation ....so there is a light at the end...take the first step, seek support and you will prosper...best of luck.
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Originally Posted by cmh141
I'm a sophomore in college. Lately, I've been seriously struggling with my self esteem and self worth...I've sought out pain and degradation in a sexual manner, I've cut myself...I'm seeing a therapist for the first time tomorrow and although I plan on telling them everything I've been going through, I'm quite nervous and embarrassed.
Anyway, recently I haven't been able to focus on school at all. I don't know what to do. I know I should be getting better grades, and I know the fact that I'm doing so poorly is my own fault. I just don't know how to get my motivation back. I feel absolutely no urge or pressure to do my work. More than anything, I want to go home and take some time off. But I feel like that's not possible, seeing as I've already placed a deposit for housing next year and my parents are paying a lot of money for me to get through school. How can I get my motivation back? Is it possible to even bounce back this late in the year???
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