I'm sorry you had to go through this. It's not your fault you have health problems. She should be standing by your side supporting you. No one is perfect. Some of us have health problems, some of us have mental problems and some people are just plain a**es. We all have our pros and cons, but we all deserve to have people in our lives that care about us. It sounds like your mom has a lot of her own issues to deal with. I wish you the best of luck to get better.