Mental illness has been so misunderstood until recent times.... There is still a way to go though!

Don't completely diss the meds option though! If a diabetic weren't to use the meds for their chemical deficiency, they will die.
Same could be said for mental illness!! I know if I hadn't have had some medical intervention I would have killed my two children and have committed suicide by now!!
I too have felt like you since around the age of 13, I got messed up with some pretty nasty people and was lucky to get out!!
There tends to be a huge rush of hormones around that age, not always of the right amount which can leave people like you and I (and many others here) frightened, confused, overwhelmed and self destructive.

It is such a scary space there is much more available out there to help you lead a 'normal' life!!! It won't always be plain sailing, you will need help along the way but its knowing and accepting that it is okay to ask for help :kiss: