For the past week or so I've been in a mixed episode - full of energy like I'm manic but depressed, or just depressed, or just manic. I'm all over the place.

Anyway, I cut myself for the first time over the weekend. I cut on my hand and then on my arm. My mind had been obsessing about cutting before I did it, and then it just happened. The weird part is that I don't remember it hurting and it felt "normal" while I was cutting.

Now I'm worried it's going to be an ongoing problem.

Is cutting a part of bipolar, or do I have something else going on?

I feel like I'm going over the deep end and it's just a matter of time before I become psychotic.