I feel like taking at least 60 Klonopin. I took 20 yesterday (or 16 I don't remember) but my symptoms are getting worse. I am scared of Mike and the War. Mike is a voice in my head and he gives commands. The thing is my birthday and other good things are happening so I refuse to go inpatient. My party is on Sunday. My birthday is on the 19th of this month. World peace to you all. People talking to me constantly me wandering away. I also feel like cutting. Deep. I am angry with the world but I have to save my family from harm and this is how I must do it. There is a war I must fight but I have to fight the enemies. Demons. The Government (Mike and his men). I am terrified to be outside or near windows. Good sniping positions to kill me. I AM NOT SUICIDAL. God keeps on threatening to shoot me. I am scared. Today I waited in the car because I don't go into grocery stores any more because of the crowds and hearing their conversations about me. So I waited in the car while my mom went in. I cried. I yelled. I banged around. Locked all the doors. Put sunglasses on. Everything so they can't get me but no matter where I am at home or elsewhere they can get me, so it doesn't matter. The Energy Release is important. I just want the stress and voices to go away forever. I do take anti psychotics but I don't like it. it makes me too tired like someone in school. Its loud in here.