I had the worse and most vivid flashback today. It started at the first time he sexually abuse me and then skipped to when he raped me the first time. It was like it was actually happening. I could feel him next to me. And when I finally snapped out of it, I could feel all the bruises he caused me. I could feel them again. I was having a panic attack because I thought he came back for me. It was so real I thought it happened again. I want to kill myself just so it will stop. I can't bare to have another flashback, not like this one...

HELP ME PLEASE! I'm begging for someone to help. I don't know what to do.

How can I stop this?

He is still abusing me, even though he isn't here. I can still feel and hear him.... I'm terrified he will be back to rape me again.....

I'm so scared!