I'm sorry you're hurting so badly right now, but you've taken an important step by reaching out.

I may be the last person to offer suggestions when it comes to eating right now, but I'm trying really hard to listen to everyone else when they're telling me just how important it is and you should to. I know how hard it is to quiet those ED voices, but you need to before things quickly get out of control. If you're able to drink a nutritional shake, that would be better than nothing at all. Just don't stop eating entirely. Please.

Contact your T if you're able to before next week if you think it would help. He sounds like he's been pretty supportive already which is wonderful. It's perfectly okay to not remember what he's said about giving you some hope. When your feeling stuck where you are, thats bound to happen. Heck, I'm in the same boat as you right now. I feel like I'm just hanging in there myself most days. PM me if you'd like to. I know just how you feel.