Open Eyes, you are expressing how I have been feeling for quite a while. But you say it better than I do. Sometimes I just lose my words but still have those feelings. I can tell you have worked hard to move forward in your battle against PTSD. I admire you for that. I have also been working hard to find solutions to triggers and other symptoms.
Yes, it IS hard work, and some days I don't feel like doing it. So I give myself a day of rest and then I'm usually ready to start the battle again.
The past 5-6 months have been very difficult for me, but I'm "Still Trying."

Thanks for your insightful post.