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And this is what keeps me hanging on in hope. could be foolish hope I don't know. Hubby wrote me a poem and a three page letter for Valentine's. Told me how he promises to stay on his meds and be the man I deserve. That he's tired of us fighting and he usually being the instigator. That he wants to be better than what he came from. He wants us to have better. Everything I want to hear Everything I need to hear to keep me hanging on seeing this through to see can it get better.
He did stand up to his mom today and told her I wasn't a taxi. He's NEVER took my side against his family. But what if it was just the holiday or our anniversary coming up. Though he did cry when he gave me the letter and told me he was sorry for everything he's put me through. That he knows he's never hit me nor would he ever but when he yells and screams and rages and calls me names and screeches at me that it still does damage. In the 6 years we've been together he's made strides but what if this is as good as he's capable of? Maybe another year and more therapy and see where we are.
But all that said today was a good day.
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