I'm so glad to hear things are better, RB!
Last night when I wrote, I so badly wanted to say something about giving it a bit of time, sometimes the heat of the moment people say things and that sort of thing, but know how badly that can come off and so held off. It was a strong feeling though because what you wrote resonated in familiarity with a dynamic experienced in my own relationship. And that is what I have learned to do. My BF has drastic mood swings and I can hear his thinking in what you wrote. And these "tipping points" I guess you'd call them, happen sometimes, and it's been a matter of waiting it out. It just needs some time/contemplation/coming back around to more balanced thinking (from black and white thinking, paranoia, depression, what have you) then things come back together again. Between his dynamic and my BP, it can sometimes get ... well kind of like a barrel monkeys in a bad way. (His dynamic has a lot of BPD to it. It's been enlightening, as I don't have that. It's a perspective that is as foreign to me as my mixed episodes are to him. So, we both lose it, just often in different ways, over different things, for different reasons. But we also connect to each other in a way that is hard to explain, so I get what you mean about not knowing how it appears to the outside world.)

The roses are beautiful! What a great color. Very velvety. So very glad you are feeling better, sweetie. Thanks for the good report.