Thank you, layla11.

I went to see the nurse at the GP's, she was new to the practice so knew nothing about me or my history. I told her I was worried about giving up the weed and then she gave me suggestions on alternative ways of taking cannabis. Lol I was not expecting that. Do any of you guys got ideas other than naughty treats so I don't put on weight? I was thinking as a tea but would not know how to begin to make an good one.

She suggested these amazing new tablets that you take whilst smoking and eventually makes a cigarette unwanted by the body and cancels the effect of a cigarette if you have one. This was only available on prescription so she went to my GP.

My GP then asked to see me, she did not want to give me pills, they cause nightmares and have a number of clashes with mood and could potentially in itself push me into a depressive episode. All Nicotine replacement therapies have this same potential to cause problems for people with mental health issues.

I have been put on a lower dose patch of 15mg instead of the 25, it is also only for day time use to stop it messing with my brain chemistry in my sleep. I have also been given a quick mist spray to use to beat the cravings. This low dose means its also not going to make me ill if I give into a craving.

I am starting today, I had two spiffs this morning to start stoned then added the patch, I am now sat waiting for the first craving. This is silly why am I scared, my stomach is feeling all knotted do you know what I mean?

I will need you guys over the next couple of days I think, I get the impression from my GP that this is going to be one major emotional roller coaster. I didn't get the impression that she was especially keen for me to attempt this.

I might do a drawing today to try and keep myself distracted, ooh I think the first craving is brewing. Arrrggghh