Thanks Venus, that makes me feel a lot less "crazy". I'm sorry that you've had similar experiences, but it is comforting to know that someone I really respect has gone through the same thing.

Yeah, I've had similar experiences before. I'm not sure if it's real or not, but I feel that as long as I'm not 100% convinced that it is, and as long as I resist the morbid commands being given, I should be ok.