This evening, I switched into my alter Michelle.

My boyfriend whom I am living with, had a band practice at night, he asked me if it was okay to go. But that he wouldnt if i was very sick. He has been looking after me for a loooooong time cuz of my switching. I am very sick. And he left. Cuz he really needed to to something for himself. He is also bipolar. I think that because of hes descicion of leaving all though he said no, I switched.
I cutt myself og arms an legs. And he came running up i shock. I hate Michelle he tried to hold me for my own safety, and michelle hit him cuz he held my wounded arm, hurts. Michelle also called him an Ego. At that he was dumb. Something I could NEVER say!!! i feel so heartbroken!!!! i cannot control my switching,and it breaks my heart.

When i came back to myself, i startet to cry hysterically. Cuz i could remember parts of what happened. I only want whats best for my love.

Before he left he said he loved me, and never going to leave me. he repeated that several times. When he left i cried even more. I hate my alters!!!! I am so sad right now....could use some support..

I love my boy, and he me... but i am tired..