I watched my sister be placed in MH hospital for 6 months when I was younger, for non-compliants. I have control issues and ED with hospitalization is really scary. Plus I worry I'll never get out.

I have been told that we are excellent parents by almost everyone we encounter. Including all our T & pdoc. We've been told we should adopt children to help them. We've had people sign over their rights so we can take help their child succeed in school. We do everything in our power to give our son a happy, stress free life so he can grow up happy and healthy. We already messed him up genetically we don't need to add environmental triggers but I'm a wreck on paper.

Warning messed up things said below please no harsh judgments.

I already have a lot of "strikes" against me for raising my son (2 bp parents, poor, SN child, co-morbid issues, my struggle accepting I'm a parent (not a baby-sitter), homeschooling and month(s) long stay with family when needed) add to that my well known violent,destructive thoughts & tendencies, psychosis and not always being on top of chores. I really don't need hospitalizations added to my record.

There are tons of parents that don't seek mental help because of fear their child/ren will be taken from them. It because states have parental termination laws like: