You know, I've had periods of my life where I have not been like this and come out of it for a period. Bur I am once again back in this place. I can relate to all, but I have been with the same man 17 years and not cheated on him. with everyone I've met that seems out of the norm for bpd. we have def had our issues because of impulsivity ans rage though. Its really not a fun disorder to have but i am learning useful tools.