...thankyou so much sweetest ladies

I'm getting so worked up....and I know I have to calm down too

....but I hate being the centre of attention...

especially when it's painful...

and exactly what they are blaming me for I now feel capable of performing.

what a mess

I'm so damn angry about it

and I know thats not good...
I mean I typically get hospitalised at least 4 times a year

and it's been 10 months

and now I'm too afraid to ask for help

so I cope?

I cope!

I must cope

seems I cope?

maybe it's a good thing?

forever positive the mad monkey