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Originally Posted by kelly4519
I'm about you're age. I feel all that too...just lost my relationsip forever..so especially the last part of what you said. I have a 20 year old that's been gone for years, but I have a 12 year oldwho desperately needs me. Thats my reason to keep going but with my mental health the way it is I fear what is to become of me. I miss having someone to wonder or care where I am.
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Exactly!
Sorry you have similar feelings.
I've always said that without my son, I had no reason to live. His father left before he was born, and we have been on our own for 21 years.
I never gave any thought to what my life would be like when he decided to move out. For all these years, it truly never crossed my mind.
Then a couple of months ago, he announced that he was ready to move out and planned to do it in two weeks. I freaked out and cried all the time.
Things kept falling through and he wasn't able to move out until recently. It will be two weeks tomorrow.
But suddenly I was hit with thinking,
"What happened? I'm such a loser that I always thought SOMEDAY I'll find 'the one' and find my happily-ever-after, but it never happened in these entire 21 years. I've been someone's mom this whole time and I'm about to be all by myself. It's like I forgot to plan ahead and now I'll have a future filled with loneliness."