I wonder the same things. I am divorced with no children and struggle with my depression. I havn't had anything near manic in over a decade so I hardly seem bipolar, but I am. I have had low paying jobs all my life and have never felt sucessful. I have few friends. I never feel like going out. I keep thinking gosh I don't want to always feel this way but nothing ever changes. I don't want to dread my job and life and getting up in the morning with no energy. I am only 41 and feel 80 already. By the time I am 50 I feel I will be in my grave from stress...