There is help. The state of Arkansas and Tennessee both have a mental health clinic and hospital that is based on your income. THey use a sliding scale, if your income is very low then the services are free. I've had to use it before. I know you want to help, but you've got to help yourself also. By all means call and make yourself and appointment, for your children's sake anyway. Call the crisis line and tell them your husband is suicidal. You know he doesn't want to feel this way, depression is horrible. I'm suffering from severe depression now. Please call asap, you've suffered enough. I wish you both luck and will pray for you. Hang in there.. I'm always here is you want to talk. katie