Okay, so... I have had yet another problem with my job tonight. I thought everything was going so well, but my supervisor didn't seem to think so.

I rarely do the shift I did tonight, which means I'm really new to it still. I was asking this other guy what to do, because he does them more than me. Well, he is... Kind of slow at what he does. I don't mean to sound mean, but he is. So I was trying to cover for him and try to get done fast tonight, so we could help with everything else.

Well, the supervisor and this other girl finished before we did, and went to do one of the last closing things, and because this other guy was going so slow and I was still new to this shift and its jobs, we were far behind. We still got out early, but, as we were leaving...

The supervisor said this to us, "You guys were half assing your jobs tonight."

I couldn't believe she said that to me. I honestly thought I was doing okay. I am trying really, really, really hard to do well at this job. I really am. I like it a lot, but the people are just not nice. No one seems to understand that I'm still new and that others process things differently. Because of my mental illness, it's taking me awhile to catch on to things. My boss said I was doing a good job, but now I'm scared this girl is going to go and tell her that I was "half assing" my job and that she's going to want to talk to me about it. And then it'll be my word against hers.

I really like this job, but... I can't keep doing this. I know you're going to have mean people at any job you do, but... There should be at least one person you like, right? I don't have anyone, other than my friend who I rarely work with.

So, I'm really thinking I need to look for another job... Nowhere else was hiring me, and I really don't want to go back to retail... But... Apparently I'm not doing well with this one, even though I really thought I was...