WOW you guys have given great advice!!!!! Thank you so much, that was unexpected, and incredibly therapeutic!

Hamster, thanks firstly, your advice is really good! Very good point regarding data security, I think this information about my past is extremely confidential n I do not see the need to disclose it to another, in the sense that the police are not allowed to and do not discuss their work cases with their wife/husband as it is not allowed. I think the method by which I attained the sexual experience I have now is not needed to be known.

My justification for seeing so many as i had was that girls my age have had 3 - 4 long term relationships already, some living with their bf already. Thats daily, i would imagine in a ltr, unprotected sex with another man, whereas I, by my lonely, have had protected sex once a year, or 2-3 months last yr. Either way i have come to the conclusion that any girl i date in the future will have a longer sexual history than me. And I'm not going to ask the nitty gritty of her past sex life, and i do not see that she is going to delve on that either, so i do not feel the need to delve on mine, especially the method lol.

And Harley, thanks for the great advice also, it is really appreciated I have been extremely lucky thus far in not contracting any std's and believe me i have been paranoid as hell lol!! I have seen std clinics on many occasions, and the doctors have pretty much told me you don't need to be here, your clean as a whistle. I do not want to push my luck any further in that arena and I do wish to abstain from sex workers from this point in my life onwards, it's been my secret nye resolution and the only one i've kept lol. And when I had done the deed it's always been protected, and I only ever used professional establishments where the girls are drug free and there by choice, many are students, or using that as a supplemental income to travel etc. I had even been asked out by one who was the sweetest girl, she had seen me at a dark time in my life and been incredibly supportive in the hr we had, only had sex once at the beginning and the rest of the hr was a heart to heart chat. She gave me her no. and said I probably won't even call, which really tugged my heartstrings. I admit i was hesitant to call, not because of any other reason but the fear in that revealing my true identity and line of work to her etc would have negative repercussions for me in my field, yeah i know, i'm hopeless. I left for travel after and lost her number and the beautiful note she had written for me, it was a believe in yourself type message. I did find it yrs later, but yeah, too much time had passed.

In terms of seeing a therapist, again my field and the area i want to be in the future does not really permit me to reveal this to someone for it to go on the record as such, I am quite a strong individual and I think with the invaluable advice you guys have given me I'll be able to sort out any issues i have personally.