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Originally Posted by Orangina88
This evening, I switched into my alter Michelle.
My boyfriend whom I am living with, had a band practice at night, he asked me if it was okay to go. But that he wouldnt if i was very sick. He has been looking after me for a loooooong time cuz of my switching. I am very sick. And he left. Cuz he really needed to to something for himself. He is also bipolar. I think that because of hes descicion of leaving all though he said no, I switched.
I cutt myself og arms an legs. And he came running up i shock. I hate Michelle  he tried to hold me for my own safety, and michelle hit him cuz he held my wounded arm, hurts. Michelle also called him an Ego. At that he was dumb. Something I could NEVER say!!! i feel so heartbroken!!!! i cannot control my switching,and it breaks my heart.
When i came back to myself, i startet to cry hysterically. Cuz i could remember parts of what happened. I only want whats best for my love.
Before he left he said he loved me, and never going to leave me. he repeated that several times. When he left i cried even more. I hate my alters!!!! I am so sad right now....could use some support..
I love my boy, and he me... but i am tired.. |
what kind of support are you looking for...
I ask this because this is online...we are not in your home with you. Online the word support has a very limited meaning...especially in situations where the poster has posted they have harmed their self....
all we can do is
read your post.
those that feel they are in a good place with their own problems tonight may or may not be able to post back to you.
some if they are comfortable giving hugs to complete strangers online may or may not click on the hugs button.
those of us who may be self injurers may or may not post telling you about our own problems with alters that self injure...but sometimes posting about our own self injury to let a poster know they are not alone may end up pushing the one needing our support over the edge into harming their self more...
but thats all we can really do for each other in the way of support..
so I find the best way I can support someone who is posting they recently harmed their self is to suggest they contact their own treatment providers ie their therapist, their medical doctor, their psychiatrist, go to the Emergency room...so that the poster can get the real time (off line) support and health care that is needed during a crisis like this...online isnt supposed to take the place of your own treatment options and treatment providers...
Now that I have posted you know someone is reading what you wrote..
with out details because I dont want to cause you more problems...I h ad alters that were self injurers/suicidal...my own treatment providers and I handled those situations with my going inpatient into the hospital mental ward until the treatment team and I were assured I and my alters were stable and knew they had to be safe and any further self injury or suicidal actions would result in inpatient treatment again. this is how my location and treatment providers deal with this kind of thing.
there is a gray box at the bottom of the page that Doc John has supplied us with that contain crisis phone numbers for such times as what you are going through. that gray box of information has come in handy for me many times..